Happy day cupcakes! Christmas had just passed and I believe we are looking forward to a better year in another few days. Every year, fellas will ask you: "What's your New Year resolution?" Resolution seems is a must and regardless how many of you are actually making your decision referring to it (neither I), this is a personal reference and you hold on to it hoping you can have a better year compared to last year's.

I don't really care making a New Year resolution as I don't make choices according it. Why bother making resolutions if it's not bringing you any further but yourself? My suggestion is don't bury your head in making one, just think about your New Year possibilities. Think what possible could happens in the next few months and what's best for you.

So alright. I am not a Christian but to be honest, Christmas always be my favorite festival came after Chinese New Year.  I had an awesome Christmas this year, last year I've spent this holy day with a big group of friends and strangers in Drummer Bee's house. To celebrate this awesome and peaceful day, it's preferable to spend my time with the loved one thus we threw a private party.

Honestly, I don't take the efforts about throwing a birthday bash for myself. All my parties were hosted either by my parents or the boyfriend. Correct me if I am wrong. I think the possibilities of receiving presents on your Birthday without hosting a gathering or party is merely zero. Agree?

Every Christmas, the boyfriend will prepare a gift for me. We have this small game to guess what's under the wrapping paper. He named me as the "Super Surprise Breaker". I always able to guess it correctly I guess I was a fortune teller in my previous year or I am simply can read his mind.

For this year, I lost my creditability as the fortune teller surprise breaker. I tried to shake the wrapped box and feel it entirely but I still not able to guess what was inside. It caught my attention the whole day until the moment I unwrapped the gift, I was overjoyed!

It was so unpredictable and surprising! I mentioned about it for once during a random conversation on a random day while he was driving. It's a fashionable toy and many had gone crazy for it even before I noticed about its existence.

It's time to reveal. Hint : To Hold, Point and Shoot. Be fast.


It's a Diana F+ Lomography-Camera!

An eye-catching designated camera.

Special design and noticeably simplicity.

The retro flash.

It uses a 120 film. The boyfriend gave me 3 rolls of 120 color film of 100 ISO. The first square picture was taken on Christmas Day. It's uneasy, I am still digesting the manual book and all those youtube.com videos. It may make it easier for all the beginners by visiting to their website Lomography.

They have this 10 Golden Rules and it advisable to obey it when handling your Lomography Camera.

1. Take your camera everywhere you go.
2. Use it any time - day and night.
3. Lomography is not an interference in your life, but part if it.
4. Try the shot from the hip.
5. Approach the objects of your Lomography desire as close as possible.
6. Don't think. (William Firebrace)
7. Be fast.
8. You don't have to know beforehand what you captured on film.
9. Afterwards either.
10. Don't worry about rules.

I'm happy with my Christmas gift. How about you? :D

PS : Check out M1 Malaysians Want programme. Please share this link to support my boyfriend. Hopefully he manages to pass through the workshop (Stage Two) then he will proceed to the final stage which the programme will be on-air starting 8th January 2011.

Hi peeps. I can't recall when was the last time I write about my perspectives about people and life. I always have happy thoughts inside me, I see people from different perspectives and put myself in their shoes. Maybe, ignorance is blissful but I doubt about it. I believe in involvement, put yourself in it and you will eventually find a way out for every doubts you have inside.

Recently, many had gone forever. There is no turning point, you can't push the backspace button and start it all over again. Life is a story, every decision you made will lead you to another way; if one day you decided to marry this woman, after 10 years, you found out that you married to the wrong person, the worst case scenario is you are going to get divorced, probably fight for the your kid's custody. You can make a chance, certainly when you are still alive and the time is sufficient.

It is extremely shocking and heartache when the first time I read about this young boy whom is only 22 years old, he jumped down from the 14th floor for a girl who decided to give up on the relationship. He was rushed to the hospital, unfortunately, he is powerless to fight against the God of Death, as what we the Chinese believe. He had left his family behind, without considering any consequences that he might caused. Everyone is devastated, his family, his friends, not to mention his ex girl friend too.

Believe me, peeps. I know this girl will never ever wish that this boy will commit suicide because of her. She is just making a decision that she believes what is best for her. Everyone deserves to make decision, just like you and I. Can she be blamed over the death of this young boy? I am strongly disagree about that. There is also a rumor speculated around saying this girl is planning to go back to her ex boyfriend. In regards of that, this girl is standing on her toes. Maybe she ended the relationship in an inappropriate way of manners that caused this tragic to happened. I know it's very saddening to eventually found out that your partner is choosing the ex instead of you, sometimes it does make you like a fool. The feelings is hard to swallow but all you need to do is to clear your mind, find a way to clarify the situation. Many would say that they don't know what else to do other than crying, in such case, you just need to find the normality in life. Move on.

When I'm not in a good shape, when I need peace, I will play poker cards. I will play it continuously until my heart tell me I'm already healed and I am certainly ready to face everything in life. I had been in a worst relationship ever in life and I decided to make a call about it. Everything went pear-shaped although we tried our best to maintain, all we really hoped is things remain the same and we can be friends again. We were not matured enough to handle the situation, I guess. I don't what to believe anymore when our mutual friends told me that he's trying to hurt himself so that the pain inside can disappear.  

Basically, I call it childish and selfish. I don't see any point why should I keep in touch with him because I have difficulties to tolerate with stupidity. He was able to track me down when I was in college and it freaked me out, like I'm totally worn out when the first time I got his messages.

Seriously, if you are obsess about this person, and you like him/her so much and you barely hang on with life without them, trust me, if you died, they probably will forget you within 10 years. Any sensible minds will choose to move on if one dies even though they were sad and hurt badly when you died. Please don't die for those who don't love you anymore, or people that choose to leave you behind like a worn out toys. Stalk them, seriously, just stalk them, continuously stalk them until you are bored with their fake smile and ugly face. Laugh about them with your close friends, find reasons for yourself for not loving them anymore. It may sounds resentful but I believe this feel so much better than hurting yourself physically. When you to resent them, means there is no love towards them anymore. It's a good thing, just to protect yourself.

What is love?

Love is patient and kind, it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude or selfish, it does not take offence, nor is it resentful. Love takes no pleasure in others’ sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

When all is forgotten all you have left is love and what is in your heart. No matter how many people tell you different just know your heart is the most sacred thing in life and you should treasure it for as long until it stops beating.

Love Doesn't Kill. Merry Christmas lovers :D

Little Italy, Kota Kinabalu

Back from Pulau Sapi around 5 in the afternoon. Dad picked us up from the jetty and suggested for a light meal before the dinner with his friends. I've been heard a lot of good recommendation about Little Italy from the local so I suggested Little Italy, which sounds awkwardly to them as I am not quite a big fan of pizza. It may be a waste if we don't give it a try as Little Italy is recognizable in this city. 

The bar.

The interior.

The information corner.

Mom and sister.


The pizza.

Have I emphasized that the Lemonade served here was the best Lemonade I've ever tasted? The pizza was so cheesy and you would definitely ask for more. As I've mentioned earlier, this was just a light meal before the dinner time  and I must spare some place in my stomach for dinner with my dad's friends. The fact was, I could still taste the Lemonade in my mouth now and I regretted for not having it for the one last time before I left the city. If I visit to Kota Kinabalu again in the future, this Lemonade definitely is one of the reason.


We had a birthday celebration for Mumble and Joker.

Mumble's and Joker's Birthday
It's their birthday.

Mumble's and Joker's Birthday
Make a wish, Mumble.

Mumble's and Joker's Birthday
Joker, don't forget to make a wish.

Mumble's and Joker's Birthday
Cheese cake for all.

This is the first time we have cheese cake for Mumble's birthday. It's an alternative choice of cake besides fruity cake. I think they like this even more compared to fruity cake.

Mumble's and Joker's Birthday
KFC Chicken for dinner.

They are all my babies. Mumble had been gone through several operations within 3 months before she was 2 years old. The doctor had given up on her and advised us to put her to sleep because no dogs barely survive from those operations; for everyone's good and also to reduce the pain, the doctor wanted us to let Mumble go. Obviously, we did not listen to the doctor and insisted the doctor to cure her. I have a strong faith in Mumble and I believe if she could talk to me, she'll tell me not to give up on her. I skipped college for few days and observed her from day to night just to make sure she was breathing. We've gone through this hard time together and Mumble survived from the operations. 

Joker Kong

2 years old. 

Mumble Chan
4 years old.

If I could make a wish on their birthdays, I wish that they can stay with me for more than 20 years, unless I die young la.

Dear Mumble, Roche, Joker and Gambit, 

We will stay with you forever, we will take care of you, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until death do us apart. 

We love you, kids.